So many people have it so much worse but at the moment I just don't care.

Dad shot down my desktop publishing idea which pisses me off, even though I knew beforehand exactly what he was going to say. I ask for his opinion because I'm afraid to make any decisions without his approval, and afterwards I kick myself for it. So I'm searching for colleges that offer online classes in web design (like he suggested) and am coming up empty-handed. Nobody offers web design as a diploma program online. Other than the private colleges who want $8000 (but isn't that normal tuition for a 53 week course?)

Regardless, my world is about to come crashing down around me if I don't get a job. Being in the middle of a med change makes that seem nearly impossible, as getting out of bed is a real challenge. But I fucked up and I guess now I'll have to deal with the consequences, even if it means being evicted for not paying the rent and having to move home where it will be equivilant to going back to square bloody one.

Anxiety's through the roof today.